Wake Up

wakeupThe dark and quiet night is stark

And filled with desolation

The pain that is deep in my heart

Is more than isolation


Why do we want to escape the past

And forget the precious moment

When we can try and hopefully outlast

The fleeting enchantment


Alone and dreaming of nothingness

I hope one day I’ll stop wondering

If I’m really afraid of loneliness

Or have I merely been procrastinating


I must make an effort to let go

Painful memories and sufferings

Our love is not just at a plateau

It’s time to stop pretending

Love Is Gone


Pouring away my special tea

Is like pouring away my love

Nothing can be done about the tea

But I’ll not let thrown my love


The rain is suddenly pouring

And strong winds are howling

To seek shelter I’ll keep running

Without pause to a safe finishing


It seems love and hate are intertwined –

Both love and hate demand freedom

When love is gone, hate is not far behind

When hate surfaces there’ll be doom


Receeding waves will rise again

Butterflies will seek out flowers again

Your promise I recall with pain

‘Cos love is gone and my wish is in vain



Once love is frozen

Everything becomes still

Tears are not chosen

But overcome with strong will


How do I hold your heart

How do I not think of you

Now that we’re far apart

The future threatens to go askew


I’ve tried not to dream of you

I tell myself repeatedly

That laughter is long overdue

But I somehow freeze suddenly


When things become hard

I must not be shocked

Mistakes I can disregard

But my willpower must not be locked

True Love


How long does one wait

Before true love comes along?

Wouldn’t it be great

If it’s something that’s lifelong?


Decades ago I was youthful

Full of yearning nd passion

Today I discover you’ve been untruthful

And realise you gave me only a ration


Is there a declaration not in vain?

Are sacrifices and pains real?

Could you make it more plain

What your adoration conceal?


There’s no way I can accept

That we’ll go on pretending

That our love is past and swept

As you’ll always be condescending

To Be Drunk

drunkIt does not take liqour

For me to be drunk

It is actually quicker

If your love is sunk


It’s difficult to erase

The image of your smile

But I’ll learn to replace

That with what’s worthwhile


I’ll try not to recall

How you were my world

And made it seem so small

When secrets were unfurled


It’s best I keep busy

And learn from experience

Instead of staying dizzy

And cry of inexperience



If there’s a tomorrow

What would you embrace?

If there’s no tomorrow

How could we interlace?


There’re things we can’t deny:

Some things are overblown

But others we comply

Or hope we can postpone


We’ll remind ourselves to be aware

Of how we must forge on

But we forgot beauty was just there

Waiting for us like chiffon


Who is really concerned

Whether we’re cold or not?

If no more hurt is turned

Would we be in a knot?

1,234 QI Facts To Leave You Speechless


This is quite an interesting book compiled by John Lloyd, John Mitchinson and James Harkin. I shall list only 20 of the 1,234 examples:

  • The face of the average man has 30,000 whiskers.
  • The world champ of French Scrabble doesn’t speak French.
  • There are nineteen languages on Earth with only one speaker left.
  • It takes 50 glasses of water to grow the orange to make one glass of orange juice.
  • Most Indonesians speak Indonesian as a second language.
  • There are four million songs on Spotify that have never been played.
  • Composer Erik Satie only ate white food.
  • The Pope is not allowed to be an organ donor because his body “belongs to the church”.
  • The Wright brothers only flew together once. Their father forbade it in case they crashed.
  • Newspapers correct fewer that 2% of their mistakes.
  • Rod Stewart lost his job as a wallpaper designer because he was colour-blind.
  • Abraham Lincoln was a licensed bartender.
  • More people in the world have mobile phones that have flush toilets.
  • Japan is home to 5.52 million vending machines.
  • There is a city in Japan called Obama.
  • Jack Nicholson once got detention in school every single day for a year.
  • Humans have shorter attention spans than goldfish.
  • Issac Newton walked out of the only opera he ever attended.
  • Emily Bronte, who wrote Wuthering Heights, and Kate Bush, who sang Wuthering Heights, were both born on 30 July, 140 years apart.
  • Two people die, somewhere on Earth, every second.



Only thirty-six years after it’s written

Does the famous Hallelujah, once rejected,

Appear on the Billboard Top 100.

Would Leonard Cohen have been heartened?


Why is it not a surprise

That despite hundreds of covers

It is only with Cohen’s demise

That it has found more lovers


It is the same with others:

The deaths of Bowie, Prince and Winehouse

Saw their record sales soar like no other

As was the case with Strauss


A day should come in time

When album sales of great artists

Be given the chance to climb

And recognised among the smartest



Being Alone


Sadness will float away like memories

What has been stolen is gone

Your smiles and riles are like flurries

Your company long since withdrawn


My smiles hide a lot of longing

Though really nothing is for ever

Affectionate memories will be lasting

Despite being alone in my endeavour


The happy times are what I’ll treasure

Though time is a heartless creature

The quiet times we pass at leisure

Until such a time it turns to pleasure


I’ll hurt but leave me alone

Let’s separate for life to be peaceful

Though I’ve never before been on my own

It’s time for me not to be pitiful

Love Lives of the Great Composers


I was excited to find this book at the library’s Book Exchange Corner. Basil Howitt, who plays the cello (most notably with the Manchester Camerata) and was a practical examiner for the Associated Board of the Royal Schools of Music, reveals more than what many composers have themselves written about how their love lives affect their creativity.

Composers covered in this book are: Don Carlo Gesualdo, Jean-Baptiste Lully, Antonio Lucio Vivaldi, George Philipp Telemann, George Frideric Handel, Johann Sebastian Bach, Franz Joseph Haydn, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Ludwig van Beethoven, Gioachino Rossini, Franz Peter Schubert, Gaetano Donezetti, Felix Mendelssohn-Bartholdy, Robert Alexander Schumann, Franz Liszt and Richard Wagner.

Some interesting infomation are:

Haydn‘s (1732-1809) greatest work, The Creation, and 3,000 pages of music were written during his rather unhappy and childless marriage. His affection for Rebecca Schroeter is immortalised in the second set of Piano Trios, which includes the famous Gypsy Rondo, and adapted from the lovely second movement of his Symphony No 102 for the Trio No 40 in F# Minor as a tribute to her. His joyful String Quartet in C Major No 3 Op 33 waas fired by happiness in love for young Italian singer Luigia Polzelli who became his mistress under the nose of her husband.

Mozart (1756-1791) wrote seven magnificent, stunning and extremely moving series of concert arias for Aloisia Weber, daughter of Fridolin Weber (uncle of the famous Carl Maria Weber, composer of Invitation to the dance, Oberon etc),  who did not return his love.

Beethoven (1770-1827) dedicated his piano sonata No 24 in F# Major to Therese von Brunsvik, a student; wrote Andie Hoffnung (Op 32), EroicaFidelioThe Appasionatathe 4th Symphony, the 5th piano concerto and the violin concerto for Josephine, Therese’s sister. He wrote Moonlight (Op 27 No 2) for 17-year-old Countess Giuletta Guicciardi, and dedicated two piano trios (Op 70) and the last two cello sonatas (Op 102) to Countess Anna Marie Erdody, a fine pianist and his student. Theresa Malfatti, niece of one of his physicians, was the probable inspiration of Fur Elise. He dedicated piano trio (WoO3a), song cycle An die ferne Geliebte Op 98, an exquisitely varied and integrated collection of tender love songs and the 33 Diabelli Variations, a towering edifice, to Antoine Brentano, his “Immortal Beloved”, an aristocratic lady married to a merchant and banker.

Mendelssohn’s (1809-1847) glorious String quartet in E Minor (Op 44 No 2) and his 2nd Piano Concerto in D Minor (Op 40) were both written during his honeymoon with Cecile. But his 1st Piano Concerto in G Minor (Op 25) was probably inspired by his love for the beautiful and talented 16-year-old pianist Delphine von Schauroth whom he had a crush on and to whom he dedicated the work. His love for his sister Fanny and her death wrung two grief-ridden masterpieces: the F Minor String Quartet (Requim & Fanny) and Nachtlied (one of his finest songs).

Schubert (1797-1828) was probably a homosexual but he wasn’t always indifferent to women. He fell in love with 15-year-old Therese Grob when he was 17, and during this period he had written his first symphony, 6 string quartets, lots of church music (including his first Mass In F) and Gretchenann Spinnrade (Gretchen at the Spinning Wheel,  a “poem-in-music”). His love token for Therese also include many love songs, the 3rd symphony & about 510 works altogether, including the enchantingly lively Ave in C. He caught syphiullis in 1824 but was high-spirited and ever-fresh and wrote his 5th Symphony (Unfinished), the Wanderer Fantasy for piano, the 5th Mass in A-flat major (“Trout Quarter”), song cycles, operas, choral works, piano and church music. He committed suicide after writing the F Minor Fantasy and the Mass in E-flat.

Schumann (1810-1856) probably had homosexual encounters; with Ludwig Schunke, they became indispensable to each other and dedicated piano pieces to each other, and his relationship with English composer Sterndale Bennett inspired the march ending in his symbolic Etudes. He met 13-year-old Clara when he was 22 and she suggested the sequence of C-F-G-C which he started incorporating into his compositions which first appears in his Impromptus Op 5. His intense relationship with Ernestine von Fricken, a fellow student, inspired Carnaval Op 9, a musical picture gallery of the different mental states. He courted the beautiful 18-year-old Scottish pianist Robena Laidlaw, dedicating his Phantasiestucke Op 12 to her. The unfulfilled longing for Clara drew some heavenly music from him: Piano Sonata in F#Minor (Op 11), G minor piano sonata (Op 22), Fantasie in C (dedicated to Liszt but with Clara in mind), Grand Sonata in F Minor (Op 14), Novelletten Op 21, Kinderszenen Op 15, Kreisleriana Op 16, C Major Symphony, Wintereise, 120 songs and many more. After their marriage, Clara inspired the D Minor Symphony, 3 string quartets, Fruhlingslied (Op 79 No 18), Song Album for the Young (Op 79), Five Hunting songs (Op 137), Piano Concerto, the Album fur Jugend and the cello concerto.